Mental Afflictions Archives

Dead Inside

New Demo. Keep going? It’s all midi which is technically dead inside. 💀 There is a punch line at the very end of this song- it’s a phrase someone told me that stuck with me as a good piece of advice on how to persevere while feeling dead inside. If you want to support meContinue reading “Dead Inside”

Sorin’s Theme

It was raining, and this song kept coming into mind, so I took some video.

Hope you get a good sense of the walk! It was magic.

Mountain of Pride

Sitting high and blusterous Condemning things

Idiot Stupid

Pretence of unassailability While failing to give any Thoughtful reason why

Hopelessness

Hopelessness As if it’s a bad thing, we say it and imagine dejection dripping down. but with hope we have pitted a self against the future one that’s always i-eye’ing the dangling carrot of a perfection perfectly always and forever out of reach .

How to Become A Dinosaur

be close-minded (refuse to entertain input from others. say things like, “i don’t care what you have to say.”) be unquestioning in the superiority of your thoughts/opinions (the corollary being- devalue the input of your community) Don’t evaluate the impact of your behaviours on others. These behaviours stem from thoughts and belief-nets. Don’t examine thoseContinue reading “How to Become A Dinosaur”

Arrogance

is the moon claiming light

Russian Roulette

Russian Roulette “I will speak of fact,” said she, “ask questions regarding the circumstantial evidence needed for painting conclusions.” And so some asked, “wherefore were the clouds of jupiter?” and others, “what fire filled your heart?” while also were there who drew without questions- trigger finger instinct struggle to survive wild sparkling despair rage, atContinue reading “Russian Roulette”

Ode to a Cage

you are the limits of compassionthe edge of bounded heartyou map the shackles restraining infinite joyand are my matchless guide to freedom without you, this invisible cagewould stay just that- invisible who are you? each and everyirritating person, thing or thought

Fear of Failure

does a leaf fail when it falls? does a tree fail during drought? this human mindgrows from a soilmuch bigger than itself learn from othersopen to truthall aroundcrack the shell& stay with the old discomfortsas they bubble away stay stay stay! and know when You were gone and where you were – that ghost town-whereContinue reading “Fear of Failure”

we think

we think it’s in the doing we think it’s in the doing and so we do and do trying to build an imagined future with blind action and lame hope but when being undoes doing by simply stopping just stop . we do it in the thinking. odd naContinue reading “we think”